I can't lie. I almost forgot it's Wednesday. I haven't much to say about last night's performance from the Mets; or the night before for that matter. To add to that, I haven't had cable for about a week as I just moved. Listening to the game on WFAN only does so much for me.

What I do want to rant about it Citi Field. Normally I'm a bit indifferent on the happenings beyond Shea's center field wall. I'll miss Shea...but not too much. I'm ready for something new, something that is comparable to the other beautiful parks out there. No matter what they call it, Citi Field is going to be that thing. So each time I go to Shea I try to soak in the steep fatal stairs of the upper deck, the seats that slant towards the field because they're broken, and the never ending concrete ramps. April 2009 cannot come soon enough.

Last trip to Shea I had some time to kill in the horrendous August weather and check out the Citi Field preview. Those of you who have not gone through it, it's basically a small sample of what the field will be like. They fill you in on all the quirks, the decorative scheme, replica lockers of Reyes and Wright that will be in the clubhouse, an actual suite, etc. Unfortunately I came away a little disappointed, despite how nice and incredible in all seemed.

The seats, a 360-degree concourse, suites I'll never sit in, elite seats right above the bullpen, a right field porch that hangs over the field, restaurants abound, a new apple...it's going to be great folks. But with all this is a ballpark this is so dedicated to Ebbets Field, it's appreciative and almost offensive at the same time. The bar and grill area on the first level is named after Ebbets Field, which won't be called Field Level, rather some uppity name for Field Level. The glass will even have etched photos of Ebbets Field. The tile in the bathrooms and concession areas is a feature taken from Ebbets Field, yet adapted in blue and orange. Of course the outside of the park is derived from Ebbets Field as we all know. And then the rotunda with the tribute to Jackie Robinson. It's all well and good. I get the connection from the Dodgers to the Mets and I appreciate the attempt to honor the history. Yet at the same time I almost felt ignored as a Mets fan.

The only obvious tie over in this preview from Shea to the new ballpark was that the carpet that will be in Citi Field has the neon men from the outside on Shea on it. Okay, that's a clever touch. But even the apple will be new at this point. I know Shea is a dump; but it's been the place that the Mets have called home for the majority of their existence. Fans have come to Shea to root for their Mets for years; to watch a World Series, a Game 7, Opening Day, or just a regular Tuesday night. Some of us attended our first ballgame at Shea. There are Mets fan who are fans simply because they used to be fans of the Brooklyn Dodgers. So I understand the special place that both the Dodgers and Ebbets Field hold for many. At the same time, those of us who will be filling the seats at Citi Field for years to come grew up as Shea Stadium grew old. Shea Stadium is what resonates with us and that is our history. I want to know that part of that history will be recognized when we move next door. A new park is more than necessary. But after walking through that preview, I felt now more than ever that when Shea comes down piece by piece, a part of being a Mets fan will be gone for good.